Each day a new reminder that her first birthday is quickly approaching. An email telling your baby Happy Birthday, that they're reaching a new milestone. Then the tears start flowing because for you, you are reaching a new milestone too. You are celebrating a first birthday with your precious baby, a milestone you have never gotten to reach before and one you thought was never possible. Over this past year we have watched this precious baby girl grow from a 3 lb 12 oz preemie to a stocky little rambunctious ball of sunshine in pink converse. She has brought more joy than we ever thought could be possible. A year ago, I was put in the hospital for severe preeclampsia. I was told at 33 weeks that my baby girl would be coming way sooner than I was ready for. I was completely terrified of losing yet another baby, spending weeks in yet another hospital and really pissed that I couldn't just have one pregnancy (my last) go as planned. I met with the NICU doctor the night before she was born and I told him I just wanted to hold her before they took her. He told me as long as she was breathing well that I should be able to hold her. Being born that early they were worried about her lungs.
Nina was born at 11:52am on Thursday, July 7, 2016. I was induced at 8am, already dilated to a 4. At about 11:15am I told the nurse I was having contractions and needed to push soon. She told me there was no way I could be fully dilated. When she checked, she said "don't push, your water is right there and her head is right behind it." She left to call the doctor. All I know is everything happened so fast. My husband and I were left in the room with a nurse who was 9 months pregnant. I had a contraction. My legs were stretched out and crossed. With that contraction, I moved my leg and my water came gushing out and right behind that came Nina.....screaming her lungs out. And that is how our little sunshine came crashing into this World......And I got to hold her.
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About MeI have experienced two separate losses to stillbirth and infant loss to CHD and blood clots. This is my online journal with my 3rd pregnancy, my rainbow. Archives
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